wants

i just want someone to roll around with, someone to turn over and pull me close. a person who will cradle my face and stare into my eyes. he will understand me with a simple glance, and his hands will send sparks across my thighs. i will want him all around me, breathing him in, feeling the sweat ripple down his back as my hands get sticky from it. i want to feel his sweat breath, the kind of breath that grabs hold of anything and everything, the kind that i cannot get enough of. i just want someone to tell me what they want without making me feel awkward, but can take an awkward moment and laugh it off. i want someone to be vulnerable with, someone to break down walls together, be truly naked in a way that we're all so scared to be in. i want to feel lust, i want to be on his mind for days after. i want to yearn for his touch again, i want to be able to feel the same way he made me feel weeks after, i want to be held and caressed and told i'm stunning. i want to be appreciated.

i don't want obligation, i don't want him to be selfish. i don't want to feel not good enough, and i don't want to be told what to do in a condescending tone. i don't want to be pushed, i don't want to feel guilty. i don't want to leave the next morning feeling resentment, i don't want to be alone. i don't want to reach for him only for him to pull away. i don't want to be told i should work out, i don't want to believe he is right. i don't want to get comfortable or bored. i don't want the same thing every time. i don't want to be abandoned in my time of need. i don't want my vulnerability to be taken advantage of. i don't want to feel like a chore, and i don't want to be left in the dark. i don't want what i've already had.