failing apologies.

i can't help it
as much as i try.
they seem to fall from my lips
apologies
leaking from my soul

i tell them to keep it in,
no one wants to hear it.
i'm tired of being tired,
sorry for being sorry

i get pushed and pulled
by this force in my chest
i don't know if i should call her
my heart
or my soul.

but she's the one who told me
to be here. all my life
i've listened to this voice
yearning to be heard

these falling apologies
these failing apologies
sorrys and sorrys.

its as if my mouth can't contain my heart
its exploding, imploding
i don't know which.
but it's surfacing and pushing
i can't hold my mouth this full forever

it all has to go somewhere,
these
failing apologies.